For the first time in about a year, I find myself crushing. It's one of those instinctual crushes where you don't really know the person that well, but you find them attractive and wish you could get to know that person.
It is not unusual for me to crush on a guy whom I have become good friends with. On some level, I have fantasized having a relationship with all of my male friends since elementary school. (I'm pretty sure most girls do this, but not positive.)
In my whole life, I can only think of three times where I had a crush on someone I wasn't initially friends with. My first was in eighth grade with a boy named Jake. This went nowhere as he moved to another school before I could really become friends with him.
My second was last year. I eventually got the courage to spark a conversation with him (about Star Trek) and we immediately became great friends. My family and friends were sure that he returned my feelings and a relationship was likely. However, a month later, he asked someone else out and our friendship dissolved into awkwardness.
My current crush is the third. I don't know what his name is (our teacher has a thick accent) and I have no idea how to start a conversation without being a complete spaz. It's at times like these that I wish I knew how to flirt properly.
