I just want this semester to be over. Nothing good is coming out of me staying. At this point, I don't really have any more learning left, just assessments of one sort or another. My anxiety/panic seems to be jumping up and down. Fast. There will be an hour where I'm so anxious I can't eat, then I have an hour and a half of calmness. Soon though, I get a random panic attack, followed by two more hours of anxiety.
For god's sake, will my brain just pick one? If it picks calm normality, then great. But even if it picks anxiety, at least I can deal with it in stride. These random spikes are seriously taking it out of me.
All I can think is that as soon as the semester is over, I can go home and cuddle with my animals and everything will be stable again. Though, by the same token, I'm seriously going to miss all my friends. I might see a couple of them over the summer, but we'll see.
It's been kind of unreal, the friends that I've made here at college. All completely by chance. I just happened to get the right roommate, and happened to follow her since I have no social skills. I am eternally grateful to the Housing Lottery.
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